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Hero of the Underground: A Memoir

by: Jason Peter, Tony O'Neill




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Sales Rank: 4210







Binding: Hardcover
Dewey Decimal Number: 796.332092
EAN: 9780312375768
ISBN: 031237576X
Label: St. Martin's Press
Manufacturer: St. Martin's Press
Number Of Items: 1
Number Of Pages: 304
Publication Date: July 08, 2008
Publisher: St. Martin's Press
Release Date: July 08, 2008
Sales Rank: 4210
Studio: St. Martin's Press









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I wasn’t afraid of death.

How could I be? I lived under death’s shadow every day. When you swallow eighty Vicodin, twenty sleeping pills, drink a bottle of vodka, and still survive, a certain sense of invulnerability stays with you. When you continually use drugs with the kind of reckless determination that I did, the limit to how much heroin or crack you can ingest is not defined in dollar amounts, but in the amounts your body can withstand without experiencing a seizure or respiratory failure. Yet at the end of every binge, every night of lining up six, seven, eight crack pipes and hitting them one after the other bam! bam! bam! every night of smoking and snorting bag after bag of heroin . . . after all of that, when you still wake up to see the same dirty sky over you as the night before, you start to think that instead of dying, maybe your punishment is to live---to be stuck in this purgatory of self-abuse and misery for an eternity. Sometimes you start to think that death would come as a blessed relief.

Toward the end, I found myself contemplating death again. Only this time I wasn’t going to leave it to chance. I was going to buy a gun, load the thing, place the barrel in my mouth, and blow my fucking brains out.

I sat on my parents’ sofa as I pondered this. All I needed was a gun.

And then all--
of my problems--
would be solved.











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Rating: 1 out of 5 stars - In the end it disappoints, Big Time
It would be natural to expect that someone who has been in and out of rehab and fought the demons of addiction to reach a level of maturity where their message would be of note.
That never happens.
The only reason I kept reading the book was to wait for this big "I get it moment" from our "hero".
That never happens.
Much of the book is spent with the author ranting against all the "wrongs" that have been done to him and his family in this world. What a joke.
Then we are exposed to the his trips through rehab, where none of the counselors have a clue about how to battle addiciton. The author of course knows how addiction can be beat and at each rehab he tells the professionals how. Of course it never seems to occur to our "hero" that maybe he is the problem.
My real concern is that someday soon we will be reading about the author and some sort of major incident related to drugs.




Rating: 3 out of 5 stars - A cautionary tale
From an untouchable Nebraska god to another piece of meat in the NFL to addict, its an interesting read. Very open and honest about a career filled with promise gone wrong. The writing has a James Frey rambling style to it, but if your a college or NFL football fan its worth a read.



Rating: 3 out of 5 stars - Disturbing
I have to agree with Nancy Rommelmann"s editorial review. Her words "unsettling", "disturbing", " a hollow whistling in my chest" after reading this book described my reaction exactly. I stayed up till midnight finishing this book because I had to know if it had a redeeming ending. I was sorry that it was only in the last few pages that his life took a turn for the better. I read this book after hearing Jason Peters interviewed on the radio. With an extended family member struggling with a drug problem and myself now free of a mild alcohol addiction, I was interested to see if this book was worth passing on to other family members as a help to understanding addictions. My naive eyes were opened wider than I thought imaginable - that so many people in our country are caught up in such hedonistic and self-centered and self-degrading lifestyles! I wanted to call my four young adult children immediately to remind them of God's love for them and His message to love and serve. Even though Jason chose not to have God in the picture, I really wished he would have shown that he had done SOMETHING in his life that was not SELF-serving. Throughout his story, however, was the life-line of his STRONG AND LOVING FAMILY (Jason grew up with and maintained strong family bonds and he finally met a woman at the very end of the book who had the same) that helped to save his life. My hope is that readers of this book are disturbed enough to take a look at their own lives and, hopefully, are choosing to use their talents and resources to do good. If you or your children are involved seriously in sports, I hope you learn from this book how important it is to have a Plan B.



Rating: 3 out of 5 stars - Purely entertainment
Make no mistake, the book is entertaining. I find it interesting he spends the whole book bragging about his escapades, and spends a couple chapters on actual sobriety. This is NOT a book on recovery. Infact, Peter is not really in recovery according to book. The guys got an ego and the book is written with typical "celebrity" narcissism..enjoy!



Rating: 4 out of 5 stars - Jason Peter
A good book,I couldn't put it down. A very compelling insider's look at the little known partying/drug addicted world of the NFL. If you are a college or pro football fan who wants to dish a little dirt, this a must read.....Not for the faint of heart!

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County-wide Wi-Fi was also hit again and again by providers who pulled out--CenturyTel in Pierce County, Wash., for instance--or problems with technology or utility poles. In a few scattered areas, Wi-Fi across counties has been built out, but it's not an idea whose time has yet come.

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